Author: apoland

  • Wool (Book Review)

    Ashley, holding a copy of Wool by Hugh HoweyI wanted to review something unexpected. I wanted to be like, “Look at this awesome, avant-garde thing you’ve never heard of before.”

    Instead, I recently caught up with the rest of the universe and read Wool by Hugh Howey. A lot of my friends had read (and liked) it on Goodreads, and it caught my eye at the store one day. (The cover is gorgeous, by the way. Just in case you wanted to judge it by what really matters.)

    I liked the book. It’s fun to read sci-fi that isn’t in space nor optimistic about the future of the human race. (Even though I enjoy books that are optimistic and take place in space.) Our main characters live in the silo, and have for as long as history can remember. Holston, the sheriff of the silo, wants to leave the silo. Which, as it turns out, is punishable by death.

    Spoilers under the jump, kids.

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  • When I Do Research, I Try to Have Fun

    For many years, I didn’t write fiction that required a lot of research… on purpose. I wrote either short stories or fan fiction, and focused more on the characters and the situations than writing the sort of stories that needed research.

    I did the generic sort of stuff — checking Wikipedia for setting information, reading that one sex site everyone recommends for fan fiction writers — but until I started writing Real Adult Novels with Actual Stuff in them, I didn’t do a whole lot of factual research.

    I still haven’t done a ton. My NaNo’ing has left me in the habit of leaving notes and saving the research for stage two. I’ve only gotten one novel through that stage. There was a lot of boring research on diabetes and stuff. (I even called a medical professional friend!)

    However. There are a few memorable moments.

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  • Donation

    There’s supposed to be a rush of euphoria. His heart should begin to beat faster.

    Abram sighs and turns the infant’s metal skeleton over in his hands, waiting for something. Maybe after he adds the muscles and skin, he’ll feel it.

    He reviews the video again, for what must be the hundredth time. There’s blood and fluid — so much that Abram would say the mother is at risk of death — but the woman’s eyes soften when the infant first cries. Its head is malformed. The skin is wrinkled and flaky. But the woman reaches out for it with shaking hands, pulls it to her breast and trembles as she sobs.

    He checks his sensors. No rush, no euphoria, and certainly no tears.

    Perhaps the infant also needs a heart. The human mother keeps the human child near hers.

    Abram walks through the cryo-chambers again, checking the vitals of each sleeping crew member. The first one is too broad, too tall — his tissue would go to waste. The second is too old, her skin thin and her muscles weak. This child will need to sustain Abram for several decades until the crew wakes and begins their mission anew.

    The third is perfect. Sixteen, barely more than a boy himself. He’s the child of the first mate — perfect. Surely the man will appreciate the reappropriation of the boy’s tissues, understand Abram’s need as a father. The read-out says the boy’s name is Stefan.

    Abram pulls the stasis tube from the refrigeration unit, cradling it to his chest as he carries it to his work station. The glass of the tube grows condensation the gel within warms. With the speed and precision he was programmed for, Arbam slides the tube into the treatment bay.

    Stefan thaws in just under six hours, his first noises something akin to the mewl of a kitten. His skin is slick from the gel, but bright and healthy.

    Abram floods the bay with the gasses to treat the tissue for donation. He looks at his own skin as he does so, curious as to who donated these tissues. The programmers had not added the information to the hive. They never did. Stefan would not be erased.

    The tissues are treated and separated from Stefan’s skeleton. First the skin, carefully cut, shaped and hung from clips along the wall. Until it could be connected to the living mechanism, the wall kept it damp. The muscles and organs rest in solution to keep them active.

    Abram first deconstructs the heart — it’s too large to fit into his child’s chest. Then he rebuilds it, stretches and sews the muscles over the pumps that will cause it to beat. When stimulated with a live wire, the little heart flutters to life.

    Abram’s lips twitch with a small smile, until he pulls the electricity away and watches it go dead.

    He rests his hand on the smooth metal of the baby’s skeleton, the whole chest fitting under his outstretched fingers. He tilts it to one side and pulls the saw down from its hook.

    The metal is strong but thin; it only takes minutes to slice through the soldered seams and lift the front of the chest away. The heart fits into the hollow of the infant’s chest, nested in the nervous wiring and connected to the limited network that would be his child’s brain.

    It’s the work of three more hours to wire in the little heart and seal the chest again.

    Abram pulls the infant to his chest, and feels the gentle thump reverb through his being. His own heart stops for a second, a curiosity before it starts again, moves in unison with that of the little metallic thing in his arms.

    The euphoria hits as he stares at gaps where his child will have eyes, the frame made from the same metal of his own. He cradles the head carefully as he sets his child down and begins to wind together its muscles.

  • Letting It Flow Naturally

    As with most things, I don’t think a lot about the mechanics of my writing — I just sort of put words down and figure out how it works later. This has lead me to abandon projects because holy shit, it needs wa~y too much mechanic work.

    By default for many many moons I wrote in what I sort of think of as the standard point-of-view: third person past tense. (I know there’s more than one type of third person, but go ask one of the English majors if you want more of that nonsense.) It came naturally, and I ran with it.

    Eventually, that changed.
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  • It’s Easier to Dream

    So, one morning I turned on PBS for the child, sat on the couch, and fell asleep. I’d love to give you a time of year or a month or anything, but this is happens so often that I could probably start every day of my life with the same line.

    When I startle awake, I remember one scene in particular: two heavy aircraft (air limo sort of nonsense, really) on a tight curve, racing around a building. As on pilot rams and cripples the other aircraft in an attempt to pull ahead of his bitter rival, he finds out there’s a baby in the crashing aircraft. He rushes to land, desperate to get the baby out, but the cops are already there when he gets down.

    If this sounds familiar, is should — it was the story seed that would become my NaNoWriMo 2012 novel.

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  • To Your Garden

    There’s a little bit of wine left, but I’m supposed to be sobering up now. I worry my tongue between my teeth as I roll the joint. (Grandma says I get that from my dad – the tongue thing, not rolling joints, though it wouldn’t shock me.) I’m trying to be precise, but I’m still not good at this part. Especially when I’m drunk. I lick the gum on the edge of the paper. Its a suitable distraction from more pressing thoughts, except that it isn’t at all.

    When I’m done, pleased with my rudimentary attempts, I slide out onto the porch to light up.

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  • Ask Questions

    I’ve never really done a lot of critiquing, outside the stuff you do in school. Its the flabby muscle in my writer education, if you will.

    I’m not a very critical thinker. I can work through a thought if someone gives me the starting point, but generally speaking I’ll take it all at face value. I’m probably not going to catch the implications of every decision made in a book; I’ll miss parallels even when they’re painfully obvious. (And when they are obvious, I’ll generally disappointed by the lack of surprise.)

    So, we’ll say — I critique poorly. I ask questions, and let the writer figure out what I’m trying to say.

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  • The Art of Never Making Time: A Cautionary Excuse

    Most days, I don’t make time for writing.

    I can’t write fiction during the day. I mean, I can. Under the right circumstances, if its calm and I have a chunk of time to myself. I know, I know — write even if you only have five minutes, but its just not me, especially when I’m rewriting and I have to both read and write. So, most often, I write at night, after Miles has gone to bed.

    I have all these fantasies of kicking the nocturnal habit and being productive when Miles goes off to school. I could get my work done in half the time it takes now. I could spend the rest of the day being social and active and writing fiction. Maybe I’ll also bake all day and my house will be clean and I will be effortlessly gorgeous. You know what, its my fantasy, let me have it.

    Ashley & Miles
    I’ve lost feeling in my left side.

    I’ve now been writing this post for over an hour. 250 words, because I had to help Miles unlock the bathroom door, get his breakfast together, help him make some toast, make myself some coffee — and then there was a tantrum, which has lead to him clinging to my entire left side crying, “Mommy, I’m scared of the ghosts, I’m scared of the owls, I’m scared of the scary trees, I’m scared of the spooky animals outside!”

    Now he’s decided that we’re not friends and I need to go to my room because I won’t let him play with my coffee. When I’ve ignored that long enough — yup. Imaginary injury, right on schedule. Apparently a Backyardigan hurt his foot.

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  • Close Your Eyes and Tell a Story

    You get into a car with a stranger. Maybe she’s offered you a ride on a rainy day. Maybe you just make stupid life choices, who knows. It doesn’t matter. What does matter is that during the ride you realize that you have no idea where the driver is taking you — and the doors have been sealed. You cannot get off this ride. You have no control.

    We are all in the car with a serial killer, and she’s going to kill each and every one of us. Welcome to life.

    So, that sucks. The good news is, we have these crazy brains that allow us to do creative and beautiful things. We create art. We invent new sexual positions. We make up a sort of magic known as language. We tell stories about the dark, about the journey, because the story is a linear. The story makes sense. It’s a pretty reprieve from a life that doesn’t.

    I don’t think the escapism and hope and control we, as humans, derive from storytelling is a bad thing. In fact, I think its remarkable. Its soothing to slip into a book and become the princess or the warrior for a while. Or maybe to become the monster; we are all dark and vicious animals on the inside, after all, with enough socialization to hide it.

    There are more benefits to the story, of course. We tell tales of “what if,” both good and bad. A great story can change thousands of minds. We influence strangers; we exert power over them with nothing but words. Have you ever written something that made a person cry? Let’s face it — you loved it. I sure as hell did.

    We explore our dreams and fears. We discover little bits of ourselves in both the reading and the writing. We empathize with the characters as people, so deeply and intensely that sometimes we create whole fandoms to cling to them, to keep them when the story is over and we’re left alone again.

    We close our eyes so we don’t see the countryside slip by. We whisper stories as our prayers, and we hope that maybe its a long way to the killer’s destination.

  • My Love/Hate Relationship With Non-Fiction

    I actually do write non-fiction to pay the bills. I write short Web articles about computers and the Internet, or computer-adjacent topics. Like this one about teens on the Internet, or this one about my favorite lady scientist, Ada Lovelace. They’re not very good.

    If there were an office hierarchy of freelance writers, I would be that guy who does his 9 to 5: just good enough not to be fired but not good enough to advance. I’m not ambitious or educated enough to branch my career beyond the Web. My writing is merely okay. What (in my incredibly unhumble opinion) makes me a good fiction writer is my blend of character and plot — the creative parts. Technically, I’m nothing to call home about.

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